Ok starting to protect myself

Today sabah alkher

Like he didnt make me cry all night

I dont want anymore

I played along

He continued that he loves me

And he is packing and everything is ok

I m so tired i cant even txt straight

Shaking whimpering hurt hopeless

I give yp if i ask him why

He will find a way to make m feel worse

Im already terrified of the man

No remorse or concern for what he put me thru last night

Nothing. I am nothing.

I have no one to take care me

And someone to destroy me

And if i said a word

Its is in my head

Or i do this every tuesday coz it is my hard day

Yeah my hard day and i am not going

I didnt prepare

I shouldnt have indulged him last night

I should have took care of mySelf and told him i had to study

Im sure i did but he loves me so much right

He was so considerate that he was already accusing me i was out

Because i was tired and didnt need angmore

But i.. I am sick

And i just had to be there for him

I knew he was drunk

It was late and he went on and on

But im sick and i trust him everytime

And everytime i end up alone

Crying my soul out

Cursed and demoralized and insulted

I ruin his days 

I am inferior thats why i am like this

I am and i am

I protecred myself last night

Im so proud of myself

Had i aswered his skype calls

I would be dead right now

From all his love and loving abuse

And today would have been the same

Sabah allkher i love u everythung is ok im off to the office packing

Please stop threatening me pls stop it. 

I protected myself last night and today i played his game and acted like it never happend

I think this will work. I dont want love or carr anymore.

I just want to rest